baby mine

ok i'm obviously hormonal - this just made me weep



does this get any easier mommas?

last night i finally took a look through our wedding photo book. it only took us one year (and a child!) to get organized enough to choose the pics and have the book made. however, uploading them to fbook seems to be a monumental challenge that my computer can simply not, well, compute. i am lacking in motivation to share with the fbook world these days anyway. or maybe i'm just seriously lazy and impatient. everyone seems to love this pic...

but i think ol' jimmer's trying to steal a peek ;) happy friday!

still really love these guys

after all this time - one of the best live shows i've seen

epic year

finally got our honeymoon pics, my 30th bday pics and our trip to europe pics off of the camera and onto the comp. do i have the patience to upload them onto fbook? that remains to be seen. in the meantime...

2011, boom - done.

hold your little ones extra close

yesterday i sent out an email to the ladies that were in my prenatal class to try and set up a postnatal group for next week. most of the ladies responded saying they'd love to and we're going to get together next week.

one of the ladies, who i realized i hadn't heard from when we were all sending out our email updates after our babes were born, sent us all a note to let us know the worst news i could imagine. her little one passed away after only a few short hours of life.

i felt like i had been punched in the stomach when i read it. i held my baby for 30 straight minutes and just would not put him down.

parents of lost children have to be the strongest people i have ever encountered. and sadly, i know a few.

gone, but never ever forgotten. xoxox

baby chub

dudes. baby weight is a son of a bitch. there, i said it. ugggggggggggggh. who would have known that a diet of mainly pasta and pizza would come back to haunt me after giving birth? especially a c-section which causes your body to blow up like a balloon. a scary SCARY balloon that seems to be something out of a nightmare. but i digress. baby weight - totally my fault and totally something i'm working on but it's a slow slowwww process. although having a 3 month old and having almost no time to eat is helping.

and having a face like this to remind me why i have a bit of extra chunk right now, well that definitely helps :)

early birds

the little bug and i are heading to post natal group tomorrow at the midwife clinic. it's really amazing how isolated having a brand new baby can make you feel, but once that 'scared to take him out' feeling begins to fade away, it's really the best. can't wait to sit and talk to some other mommas about our babes.

the only real problem with this plan is, post natal group begins at 10am and this little reindeer and i like to sleep in until 11. :)

t-gives

we had an amazing long weekend over here - not much sleep in the beginning but jax took it easy on us after a week of his new self imposed bedtime of midnight. thanksgiving was really incredible this year because now more than ever, jimmy and i have so SO much to be thankful for. great family, friends, our girls and of course, our little babe. :)

jaxon james

hello internet! i have been on an extended hiatus from my laptop while learning the daily ropes of being a new momma. after 35 hours of labour, jaxon was born on july 24th via c-section. words cannot describe what jimmy and i were and are feeling ever since that moment. day to day life is amazing and i am more in love with this little man than i ever thought possible.

he sleeps and eats like a dream, we are beyond lucky & totally blissed out.

he seems pretty happy too. xo

one of the best

...movie scenes of all time. plus, hall & oates - can't go wrong.

back!

i finally got my computer situation sorted (miraculously my comp cord just started working again for no apparent reason) so i am back to the land of the technologically living!

i've been off work for abut 5 weeks now and they've been bust prepping for baby's arrival. all home birth supplies are in and being 1 week from my due date, it's safe to say... I'M READY.

baby Jax should be here soon... we hope. although it could be another three weeks.... and in this heat all of my time has been spent indoors cranking up the AC. luckily for me i have the best husband in the entire universe who has been making very sure i am cool and comfortable.

and so the waiting game continues. i cannot wait to see his little face.

First week of mat leave was amazing - I got some sleep and was able to spend a ton of time at home with the fam. I have to admit, I do miss my work peeps but being able to rest has been incredible. Lugging this boy around is proving to be a bit tougher as time is moving along. 5 more weeks to go until the due date so maybe 6 pr so more weeks till Jax? Anyone's guess at this point. This sweekend was unreal, so much fun and all my favorite people. My mom and friends planned and executed the sweetest baby shower of all time and we were ridiculously spoiled. Jaxon already has way more clothes than I've ever had and they are ridic on the cute scale. My oldest friend jacquie got me this necklace - something I really wanted but couldn't quite find the right one - and it is so perfect I never want to take it off. And in even better news, Jules went into labour today and it looks like baby Cole will be here before we know it! Havin a best friend on mat leave at the same time is going to be too much fun. Plus she can help me figure this stuff out :) Swollen face, feet and hands are becoming a reality but with our last pre-natal class on Thursday and the crib all put together it all means our baby boy will be here soon and we cannot wait. Oh, add a birthday pool party to the end of the weekend and that was one of the best times ever. I am such a lucky lucky girl to have so much love sent my way. Thank you everyone who made it so special!! Post on some of our absolute fave gifts for baby coming soon! Xo

you guys!!

today is my last day of work! our midwife, jimmy and i have come to the conclusion that a little down time is sorely needed before the babe arrives. momma needs some sleep and to mentally prepare for what's going to go down in about 6 weeks! i am incredibly lucky to have such a supportive group of managers and co-workers who have taken this decision with the best attitudes ever although i am sure it means more work for them with me gone so quickly. anyway, they're the best and i am SO grateful. 

it's a little bittersweet for sure, it's been almost 4 years of coming in to the same place every mon-fri and seeing everyone that i have become friends with and learned so much from. Proximity, i will miss you!!

oh and if the look on my nephew's face in the photo above doesn't melt your heart... then you got some problems friend.

xo