ok now i'm on a pearl jam tear.

light years

ok new name, new feel. i am definitely digging this.

the lyric i used to rename this blog has always resonated with me and i always used to think it was just because it was so beautiful. now i can't think of a single way to better describe the way jaxon has changed jimmy and my lives. as many other things are now, it makes perfect sense.



see you soon.

2013

i know i say this every time now but wow, i am one hell of a bad blogger! i have been so wrapped up in mommyhood that many many things i used to do have fallen by the wayside. although, i can't think of one thing else i'd rather be doing than spending time with this guy right here.

things are chugging along here at the most excellent pace and my god this boy is sweet. having so much time to disconnect from all things work (office work - being a mom is the most intense work of all time) has really given me this amazing opportunity to reconnect with all things family and friends. i never realized how much bringing a baby into our lives would mean not only to us, but to the people who love us. it's the most incredible thing.

anyway, time to rethink this blog. those who know us know the title of this bog no longer suits and i am more than looking forward to living our lives with that portion of it well in the past - which is exactly where we've placed it. 2013 couldn't have started better :)

so off to bed at 7:52 pm because hey, we just finished sons of anarchy season 5, that bottle of red and i can't think of one thing that sounds better than some sleep. xo

santa jams

warning: major venting post ahead...

we tried to take jaxy to the santa claus parade yesterday and unfortunately it ended up being one of the worst experiences i've had after ten years of living in this city.

the people we encountered were rude and just unbelievably ignorant. i never (ever!) usually say anything to strangers but seriously at one point this woman was practically standing on top of my dad and i had to tell her to back the eff off. i don't understand the incredibly uncontrollable need to take 1 million pictures of Blinky the police car. what is it that makes people forget the concept of personal space? or just manners in general? anyway, after being kicked by the child beside me on her father's shoulders for the 67th time and then actually squeezed out of where i was standing by a mother and her child (no 'excuse me', no nothing) i had had enough and got out of there.

jax had fallen asleep almost instantly so we made our way home about 20 minutes in to the parade. right after i got yelled at by a woman who got coffee spilled on her shoes. yes, because that was MY fault. arg.

i cannot wait to move outta here!!!! i am basically crossing off the days in a giant calendar in my mind.

once we got home we had play time here and the little man decided he would stand up for a while. what happened to my teeny tiny baby?

ps: santa jammies make everything all better :)

baby mine

ok i'm obviously hormonal - this just made me weep



does this get any easier mommas?

last night i finally took a look through our wedding photo book. it only took us one year (and a child!) to get organized enough to choose the pics and have the book made. however, uploading them to fbook seems to be a monumental challenge that my computer can simply not, well, compute. i am lacking in motivation to share with the fbook world these days anyway. or maybe i'm just seriously lazy and impatient. everyone seems to love this pic...

but i think ol' jimmer's trying to steal a peek ;) happy friday!

still really love these guys

after all this time - one of the best live shows i've seen

epic year

finally got our honeymoon pics, my 30th bday pics and our trip to europe pics off of the camera and onto the comp. do i have the patience to upload them onto fbook? that remains to be seen. in the meantime...

2011, boom - done.

hold your little ones extra close

yesterday i sent out an email to the ladies that were in my prenatal class to try and set up a postnatal group for next week. most of the ladies responded saying they'd love to and we're going to get together next week.

one of the ladies, who i realized i hadn't heard from when we were all sending out our email updates after our babes were born, sent us all a note to let us know the worst news i could imagine. her little one passed away after only a few short hours of life.

i felt like i had been punched in the stomach when i read it. i held my baby for 30 straight minutes and just would not put him down.

parents of lost children have to be the strongest people i have ever encountered. and sadly, i know a few.

gone, but never ever forgotten. xoxox

baby chub

dudes. baby weight is a son of a bitch. there, i said it. ugggggggggggggh. who would have known that a diet of mainly pasta and pizza would come back to haunt me after giving birth? especially a c-section which causes your body to blow up like a balloon. a scary SCARY balloon that seems to be something out of a nightmare. but i digress. baby weight - totally my fault and totally something i'm working on but it's a slow slowwww process. although having a 3 month old and having almost no time to eat is helping.

and having a face like this to remind me why i have a bit of extra chunk right now, well that definitely helps :)

early birds

the little bug and i are heading to post natal group tomorrow at the midwife clinic. it's really amazing how isolated having a brand new baby can make you feel, but once that 'scared to take him out' feeling begins to fade away, it's really the best. can't wait to sit and talk to some other mommas about our babes.

the only real problem with this plan is, post natal group begins at 10am and this little reindeer and i like to sleep in until 11. :)

t-gives

we had an amazing long weekend over here - not much sleep in the beginning but jax took it easy on us after a week of his new self imposed bedtime of midnight. thanksgiving was really incredible this year because now more than ever, jimmy and i have so SO much to be thankful for. great family, friends, our girls and of course, our little babe. :)

jaxon james

hello internet! i have been on an extended hiatus from my laptop while learning the daily ropes of being a new momma. after 35 hours of labour, jaxon was born on july 24th via c-section. words cannot describe what jimmy and i were and are feeling ever since that moment. day to day life is amazing and i am more in love with this little man than i ever thought possible.

he sleeps and eats like a dream, we are beyond lucky & totally blissed out.

he seems pretty happy too. xo