last night i got my wedding gift from james. i really had no idea what to expect but he told me it had the potential to make my entire week. um, and he was way more that right.

james proposed to me with a song he wrote and sang to me on a beach in fiji. so, last night he sat me down and put headphones on me and started the song which he had recorded for me - something i had been bugging him to do for the last 18 months.

but then, closer to the end of the song i can all of a sudden hear what sounds like waves an a beach. and then i could hear people talking - and i realized the voices i heard were his and mine.

he had secretly recorded the original proposal in fiji 18 months ago and had kept it a secret until last night.

my wedding present was getting to relive my wedding proposal again for the second time.

i don't think i've ever cried like that or been so moved by anything ever ever.

and i get the rest of my life with this man? goddamn - life is good!