the anxiety dreams have begun again, and they're getting more and more intense. just your regular run on the mill stress stuff i guess - totally expected since the wedding is coming closer and closer - seriously i cannot believe that it's june already.

i also cannot believe that one week today i am going to be 30 years old. an entire decade has gone by and it's more than safe to say that this has been the one where everything has happened. relationships started and ended, jobs were begun and quit. apartments, bedrooms, beds - these have all changed many many times over the course of the past 10 years.

i am ready for it though i think. the closer i get the more i feel like i am finally in a space where i really know what's what in that crammed little attic of a mind of mine.

oh, and another thing my brain did last night is sub in this guy as the groom in the crazy mess of a wedding i was dreaming through.

ok, if it's just a dream... i guess that's ok ;)